As we near the end of a trying time in our history, I wonder. Will we continue to live in a State of Gratitude for all the little things that this life has to offer. Or will we attempt to resume to the crazy, manic lifestyles we all had before the pandemic hit.
This past weekend I traveled out of the State of Florida to a place still very much under strict curfew and COVID related mandates. While Florida seems to act a little differently than the rest of the country, it served as a reminder to the importance of how important it is to keep the lessons learned close to heart and mind.
Over the weekend we also experienced another full moon. What a beautiful opportunity to absolve ourselves of things that no longer serve us. I had to personal relinquish a little control and trust in others on levels I have not done in couple past years. Our ability to grow as individuals is strongly rooted in the ability to create human connections. Connection is key to progress. Without connection, there is no progress.
Why do I constant strive to be in complete control of all facets of my life? Even the ones that I control over? As the universe has shown me, things happen in life as they are supposed to and when they are supposed to.
For so long, I have been staring at doors in my life that have been closed. So much so that I feel like I am trying to pry them open. For years, I have been in and out of nursing school programs. So many times, I have started and withdrawn midway through the program for various reasons. As of recently, I have felt the pressure within myself to complete this program since it was something that I started and didn’t finish. There are many things in this life of mine which I have started, but not seen through. But for some reason, at the eleventh hour, I made a conscious decision to not open this door that I have been staring at for quite some time (10 years). What changed? I don’t know. But there was a voice in my head, which told me this is not the path I am meant to take. At one point in my life, it was my passion to be a Registered Nurse. With as much knowledge over the past years in school as I have, l believe that it would be quite easy for me to finish. It isn’t the fear of failure that holds me back, but rather what this pandemic has provided me.
State of Gratitude started as an initiative, as a project, to help others find gratitude in their lives by spreading a message. As a beautiful by product of spreading this message we have the ability to gift someone else struggling the ability to make it past a hurdle in their lives.
I do not know what the future holds, but for now I am unapologetically saying no to one thing, for the ability to say yes to hundreds of others. We don’t always know if our decisions are the correct ones, but we make these decisions with the knowledge and experience that we know today.
Today, I grow through my ability to see this through.
Today, I live in a State of Gratitude.
Today and Always.